OFF) I'm now going to leap completely off the cliff

[mike coleman]

first:
want to thank Judge Trev, as it just occurred to me that, for some reason,
mostly known from above, I contacted him when I wasn't even contacting local
people in my life.
He encouraged me for a long time to "participate" once again. I thank him
for the new (albeit still shitty) life that I have. I was in touch with him
a LONG TIME before I started bothering this forum again.....
next: nobody is getting younger and people are departing. very sad. my best
friend who I never hear from because he is the worst case of video game
addiction the world has ever seen, and it's ugly, so ugly(and I've cleaned
up a real crack house with candle wax all over the walls) , just had his
brother fall over dead of a heart attack 3 days ago.....out of the blue, he
was about 50......
I think at this point I almost deserve a reward for being so good at
"completely rejecting every one and every thing" (of course every one and
every thing also rejects me so it's mutual), but I did cave
being alone month after month can do funny things to the mind, and so I
caved a bit
I googled and found my lost collecter friend Pierre Thompson, And god bless
him, he's still there, and the poor guy has been waiting for a new HW LP
since "The Elf and the Hawk", so I took care of that......
more on him in a minute, thought I'd mention that Mary Bruce seems to be
doing pretty good, she took a bit of a dive there for a while, which I
feared would happen, but she's hangin' tough.....
which leads to this: she is into a lot of stuff that I generally am not, one
of them being dreams.......I figured something "cosmic" can happen very
seldom and occasionally, but mostly thought they are nothing more than our
own invention. But I just had a revelation. I used to wake up dreaming of
collecting a bunch of Hawklords 45's and records, and it would KILL ME to
wake up and realise I had no collection, no more family, just nothing. no
joy. NEVER would I have planned for the Hawklords to be a focus of a new
collection if such a thing were even imgainable at the time, and it
certainly wasn't. But this is exactly what has happened, the most prominent
new things have been tons of Hawklords stuff. I feel very certain I dreamed
the future in some way....the Hawklords dreams were recurring and so
annoying
that said, my friend Pierre was in an early incarnation of the local
semi-legendary band 'The Nervebreakers", and they have a site, and I thought
it fun considering some of the things his bandmate 'Barry Kooda", or wots is
name has to say
for instance, almost kicking Sid Vicious's ass (that's arse for Trev), being
known by sting but not knowing sting, having his picture in the rolling
stone, and playing with Roky Erickson
link: http://www.nervebreakers.com/history.htm
so anyway, thanks Trev, and nobody take each new day for granted........